from loving to missing

Pic description : 1. Preparing, 2. After a few days, 3. After more than a week, 4. After 2 weeks i should throw away the water, 5. Me turning on the light

Well, as you seen in the picture above, there is a gift from DEE while he was visited me last January. Named crystal garden. Yes, you make a beautiful crystal by yourself with the materials which already provided in that box ( Pic 1 ). This is a super lovely gift I ever had. Since I've never got any gift, especially from my someone special -___-" I'm too excited to made it last time. But, so sorry, I don't know where to buy it, just ask Dee, HAHAHA!

Sure, really happy to wait day by day, while the crystal growing up within my feel leading them to grow beautifully <3 

Yesss, almost every day I told him the evolution of these crystal. I captured, then i send the pic via bbm. 

*In that time, before we're both losing contact until I write these post #SuddenlySad.

I thought i made a mistake, I dip the water a little bit much, so the crystal not growing so well.

And Dee always blame me about it :(

Dee also said that I'm not doing it with all of my lovely feeling. About these, Dee was really WRONG.

I made it with a super missing him feeling, I even made it with a full of love.

If i could say, the crystal growing within loving feeling me to him.

He said, he tried to find "I LOVE YOU" tags with pink color of the crystal. But he didn't found it. So he choose "MISSING YOU" tags, wishing me know that he missing me.

This is have been 4 months from that time. Time goes so fast. Just like his feeling.

His feeling gone as fast as the crystal grown. Yes, his feeling are gone too fast before I realized.

Not like my feeling while I made it, growing up everyday. It become bigger and bigger.

But yeah, again, blame the time. Time changes everything they want, everytime they needed to.

Now feeling of loving him, change become feeling of REALLY MISSING him.

Missing mean not just languished someone, it means losing a thing.

But here I am, only could keeping my feeling inside my heart. Cannot tell him, just hoping he will realize someday. And wish, the crystal tell the truth, he's missing me :)

LOOK THOSE COLOR. IT SHINE SO BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL IN THE DARK :)

P.S : Dee, if you read these, I just want you to know how I miss you. This saturday, brings me to the feeling of missing you :( 

You know what, I will always keep that gift forever. I'll remember that I ever love you when I see that crystal, and i will interpret that you missing me too when I see it :)

Miss you, Dee..

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TRANSLATION

Ya, seperti yang lo lihat di gambar diatas, ada hadiah dari DEE pas dia ketemu gw bulan Januari lalu. Namanya Crystal Garden. Ya, disini lo membuat kristal indah itu sendiri dengan bahan-bahan yang udah tersedia didalam box di gambar nomer 1. Ini hadiah terindah yang pernah gw dapet. Sejak gw nggak pernah dapet hadiah apapun terutama dari orang yang spesial -____-" Gw terlalu bersemangat buat bikin itu kemaren.

Tapi maaf, gw gak tau dimana harus beli itu, tanya aja sama si Dee, hahaha!

Bener deh, seneng banget nunggu hari ke hari, ketika kristal itu tumbuh besar dan indah dipimpin sama perasaan gw <3

Ya, hampir tiap hari gw kasih tau perkembangan si kristal sama Dee, gw foto dan gw kirim gambarnya via bbm. *Pada waktu itu, sebelum kita berdua bener-bener kehilangan kontak sama dia sampe detik gw nulis postingan ini #MendadakSedih.

Gw rasa gw membuat kesalahan ketika memasukkan air kedalemnya, kayaknya kebanyakan, jadi nggak bertumbuh dengan baik. Dan Dee selalu nyalahin gw gara-gara itu :(

Dee juga bilang, itu gara-gara gw nggak sepenuh hati ngerjainnya, dan dalam hal ini Dee SALAH besar.

Gw bikinnya dengan perasaan kangen yang super, bahkan dengan perasaan  penuh cintaaa #aisssh *ini di indonesiain jadi lucu yaaah >.<

Kalo boleh gw bilang, kristal ini gw buat dengan perasaan cinta gw sama si Dee.

Dia bilang sih, dia nyari yang tulisannya "I LOVE YOU" dengan kristalnya berwarna pink, tapi dia nggak ketemu ( kehabisan katanya ), jadi dia pilih "MISSING YOU", berharap gw tau kalo dia kangen sama gw.

Ini udah berjalan 4 bulan dari waktu itu. Waktu berjalan sangat cepat, kaya perasaannya dia.

Perasaannya hilang sama cepatnya dengan tumbuhnya kristal itu ( cuma 2 minggu mamen! ).

Ya, perasaannya bener-bener udah ilang, sebelum gw bener-bener menyadarinya.

Nggak seperti perasaan gw saat gw bikin kristal itu, bertumbuh setiap hari. Jadi semakin besar, dan besar.

Lagi lagi, salahkan waktu. Waktu merubah apapun yang dia mau, dan kapanpun dia perlukan.

Sekarang, perasaan cinta gw ke dia, berubah menjadi perasaan SANGAT MERINDUKAN dia.

Missing disini bukan cuma berarti merindukan seseorang, tapi juga kehilangan suatu hal.

Tapi disini gw sekarang, cuman bisa nyimpen perasaan gw didalem hati gw yang paling dalem. Gak bisa ngungkapin ke dia, cuma bisa berharap dia bakalan sadar suatu hari nanti. 

Dan berharap kristal itu ngomong yang sebenernya, kalo dia bener-bener kangen sama gw :)